5. its not what i expected.

    theres too much going on. since january ive been trying so hard to lose weight, balance jr. year, keep a boyfriend and a bestfriend, and somehow live. the stress and gray hairs ive gotten is ridiculous. on a positive note my grades are great. however i fight with my mother for every other reason under the sun. the weight situation has been tough because ill work out for amost 2 hours, and then break down and cry and sit in my sweat until i can function to get up and shower. one week i didnt eat, i realized that just makes me grumpy. trying to make myyself throw up was a decision i know to never make again. i guess it just take a lot of time. but its so frusturating. i loved my boyfriend. so much. hes someone i see myself marrying one day. however, things got shaky. my bestfriend told me he loved me and over time i gave in. i broke up with my wonderful boyfriend. and not that this isnt absolutely wonderful, its not what i thought. but im not complaining. i dont talk to my boyfriend much anymore. hes there when i need him and he knows im here when he needs me. a year and a half just to try something new. call me crazy, i know i am. but i live all about timing. timing is literally everything to me. ill know when it the right time for something or not. and right now. is the time for me and my bestfriend. who knows where this will take me.

  10. Anonymous asked: hey, i love you <3

    hey i love you too jerkkk

  11. Anonymous asked: Honest to god, would you ever leave your bf?

    NO sorrrriiii bhaiiiii <3

  12. Anonymous asked: You are beautiful. I hope there is someone out there who treats you right because you deserve nothing less than that. Have a good day :)

    thank you, there is, im laying with him now :)

  15. flatabsandthighgaps: Seriously. I just need to go on a mini-rant about how freaking amazing Hilary Duff is. She just, everything that could possibly be right about her, is, I swear. She had one of THE best original Disney shows ever. I’m pretty sure Lizzie McGuire was my childhood. She put out CDs, the whole shebang. (You know you know every word to Why Not, and that you at one point owned the Metamorphosis CD, so don’t even lie.) And when she was a teenager, what was the worst thing she did? What, that little tiff with Lindsay Lohan? About Aaron Carter or whatever? You didn’t see her in sex scandals, and out partying and going out of control. Then she went on and did a bunch of movies that were freaking amazing, like A Cinderella Story and Cheaper by the Dozen. She had a few weight issues along the way for like, half a day (or am I thinking of Lohan?), but freaking look at her now. She’s been married for freaking two years, and just had her first kid, not at 16, but at freaking 24. Now she’s into freakin’ animal rights, and protects the right of children and is all philanthropic and crap. This chick is such a bamf, is the one that teenage girls should look up to now, not some Snooki or whoever the crap else people are idolizing. Show some respect, bro. Show some respect. She’s not just a fitspiration, or a thinspiration, she is one of the biggest freaking inspirations of my generation.

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